For me, it had its ups and downs, which made me think long and hard about my life. Am I healthy? How do I want to live? What matters to me?
Without getting too personal, one thing that really dawned on me is that I had become bad at being present in the moment. Physically, yes, I was present, but in my mind, I was constantly somewhere ahead of every situation, preparing and planning future events and avoiding potential pitfalls. It gave me a great sense of stress and an extreme feeling of loss of control. And come to think of it, most things I was trying to think my way out of were things way beyond my control. I cannot control if everyone is happy. I cannot control life and death. I cannot control other people's reactions and emotions. This dawned on me early December 2016. And I made a change. No more stress. I will not create stress for myself.
So in 2017, I will try to focus on what is here and what is now. Time will be less of a factor for me. And if you ask me what I want for myself it is very clear: My goal is to just continue to be happy. My gut feeling will guide me as always.
Happy new year everybody!
One of my favorite personal moments of the year:
Riding a quadbike in the caldera hills of Santorini with my boyfriend on the back. I felt pretty cool going at max speed and navigating a new place. I thought to myself how I should take in such a moment. If someone had asked me years ago, who would have thought that I would do something so awesome :-)